

Holy shit brother. You’re going to get knifed.
To directly answer your core question, you definitely should be in therapy to help you process this. Your anger at the people trying to help you SAVE YOUR DAMN LIFE FROM A MURDERER in this thread is a pretty clear loud fucking red alert klaxon that you need some help processing this.
However, the more pressing issue is that YOUR BROTHER IS GOING TO KILL YOU IF YOU DON’T GET THE FUCK OUT OF THERE and I do think you should consider prioritizing that in the short-to-medium term.










I mean that’s good, but dude is going to shank you. Progress won’t feel like much while you’re bleeding out.
You’re in imminent danger.