

I’d trade lifespan in order to be able to be in-the-moment just a bit longer during my son’s accomplishments, milestones, life events. It could be just another 5 minutes, or more. But also to be able to have more time in-the-moment for when he needs me to be his protector. Time to analyze and get my head around something that is unfolding realtime. The ability to find the right words, and a way to say something heavy in the right tone and with grace.
Typing this all out made me cry. So much is going wrong for me right now, but the thought of “work will be over soon, I’ll get to be with my boy soon” helps me get through these days. And now I might be losing my dad earlier than I thought. I am worried that I might get sick too. I’d take all of the time I can if it could get me more time for right now.
























I guess I had assumed that this ability was unique to me in this scenario. If everyone had the ability, reality would become quite a mess.