Also because no gorilla glass… :/

a fingernail scratches it

FYI autism diagnosis usually makes it much more difficult to emigrate if you ever decide to so its not exactly a good thing to get a diagnosis.

But no, I never went spcifically for such a check.

You permanently become more neurotic if you get traumatized early in childhood

Oh noes…

searches Wikipedia

Highly neurotic people have more trouble coping with stressful events, are more likely to insult or lash out at others, and are more likely to interpret ordinary situations (like minor frustrations) as hopelessly difficult.

Oh that’s me

I had a traumatic incident at 6 years old… 🙃

So… time to stay insane?

I actually just realize I probably am so bad at my native language precisely because of the trauma disincentivising me from wanting to learn more… so yeah…

I’m just sectioning off all the emotions and hide it away in a part of my brain called “Cantonese” aka, the trauma language.

English is my escapism language. Where I can forget about everything.

No wonder why 2nd generations just hate their ancestral language…

All that reminds them of is fucking trauma

What are super-computers used for ?

Its used to build a giant bot network that makes brand new accounts to ask questions in various forums.

I’m like in my early 20s and I kinda already forgot most of what happened before age 8, when I was in my birth country.

I had a very traumatic incident involving me running away from home at the age of… I think 6…

That is the defining memory of my childhood. That is the most vivid incident I remember.

The… Fear…

All Alone

In a city of millions…

Wtf was I doing

I mean funny enough, this quote is so relevent to my real life

I have an older brother

He was beating me at home

He’s 5 year older than me, I was a defenceless child

6 year old me was so scared of him, I decided home was more dangerous than just running out on the the streets

the hell

most traumatic day of my life

HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY BROTHER

BUT HE HATED ME

😭

Revenge of the Sith? Volcano Planet LightSaber Duel?

(Okay I might not remember the exact quote correctly so I might’ve paraphrased)

Idk that is just the first thing that popped in my head and I felt the urge to type it out lolz

Okay so:

Love is something that a child always craved for from those who are supposed to be protectors

But when that love is deprived, that child grows up so depressed that he spend most of his time online just trauma dumping on the internet because he has no one to talk to

And that child is me…

I’m still emotionally immature, even though I’m old enough to vote and get conscripted

Thanks, birthgivers 🫠

YOU WERE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME. I LOVED YOU!

I HAAATTE YOU!!!

Idk how.

My parents ARE the cause of my stunted development and I have no clue how to be “independent”

The idea of bugeting and bills just terrify me.

I’m emotionally unable to like be alone because I’m just so used to be with my abusive parents since the beginning of my life

I’m rarely like “by myself” except for like K-12 school

Can’t even manage do to college since I was so anxious the entire time I tried…

Literally so depressed and can’t even sleep in the college apartments because I couldn’t get used to not being with my abusive parents

Wtf is wrong with me

They created this trap where I’m not only financially dependent on them, but also emotionally…

Stockhold syndrome much?

Idk why

I KNOW its abusive, but I CRAVE their approval so much

what the fuck is wrong with me

I feel so sad if they reject me

I really wanna kill myself idk why

I never even had a true friend

Like Antidepressants?

Or like… those that get the DEA knocking?

Drugs will result in me being homeless.

Also literally don’t know any Asians that use drugs, I’d probably get so socially ostricised from the entire Asian community since its stigmatized and that’d suck.

Also brain damage… I’m trying to not like have memory issues… psychoactive chemicals and all… don’t want even more issues than I already have…

Okay so pretend they are right, pretend that the Spanish manufacturer pays the tariff:

Do you think they will still sell it at the same price if they had to pay $450? They’d just charge you more to cover their fees, lmfao.

Edit: Oh someone here already commented this, oops

If you’re in the US

I mean my other country before this was China… so… 🤷‍♂️

The universe loves trolling me.

Universe: “Hey, guess what? In this incarnation, you are born into a family that’s immigrating to the United States”

Me: “Thanks, universe”

Universe: “Haha, SIKE, you get a racist dictator for president in your new adoptive country. Have Fun! P.S: your family is also toxic.”

It is.

Because this feeling of “trapped” is persistent everywhere.

Home

Work

Country

And just… this mortal realm of existence…

But okay my context is I’m with my family (of origin) and I feel so trapped.

And to complicate things… I am too afraid to venture out there alone since I’m in the USA and ICE is everywhere. So I’m tio scared to be alone. And don’t even mention “friends”, I have none.

Having severe depression makes every little action feel take MONUMENTAL energy to do… just feels so… heavy to keep going

Treatment for depression requires me to BEG my parents for money… which is just destroying my self esteen

My parents are ableists

I mean… I’m trying to not be in prison if possible lol

NYC cars lining up cross the Holland Tunnel near 42nd street Manhattan

Pretty sure it’s tolled on the way out of NYC which makes the traffic worse

It’s only 2 lanes wide

So fucking tired of being forced to visit relatives and just wanna go home… AND STUCK IN THE TRAFFIC JAM FOR HOURS

so I joined the Army

From post history, OP is Russian… 💀

This is how Gen-Z Philadelphians talk… 🤷‍♂️

Nah bro

Even if a “moderate” candidate wins the republican primary, its still gonna be 10x worse than the average corporate dem

“You criticize society, yet you participate in it”

-This is what you sound like

Oh btw did you know the internet runs mostly on Jeff Bezos AWS and your device is made with slave labor?